Dear Carrie Fisher,
I know you won’t ever read this, since, well, you passed away this morning, but that’s not the point—well, actually, in a roundabout way it is.
I’m writing you this letter to thank you. Actually, I’m writing a letter to express my thanks to you. It’s for other people to read since you can’t. Still, I need to say this to you, to people who know who you are, and to the universe at large:
Thank you.
Thank you for understanding, because your life forced you to, what the role of celebrity is and why people need them. You were the child of celebrities, Hollywood royalty at its most pure-blood, and became an icon in your own right. You’ve endured a lot as a celebrity.
High profile lives mean every mistake is a high-profile mistake. You’ve had yours. You owned them. You overcame them because instead of denying them, you acknowledged and understood your faults. “I have to start [this memoir] by telling you that my entire existence could be summed up in one phrase. And that is: If my life wasn’t funny it would just be true, and that is unacceptable” you say in Wishful Drinking. You also said, “We’re only as sick as our secrets,” so you took every defeat and turned it into a morality tale that was as charming as it was admonishing. An addiction to opiates is not a good thing. Acknowledged. Overcome. Bipolar 2 is a real thing, and people who have it can make terrible decisions. Acknowledged. Fought. In doing these things, you have helped countless people face their own demons. You diffused serious subjects with humor, and made these scary things that you lived through somehow less intimidating or taboo for the rest of us.
This is perhaps the great role of celebrity: to be someone others can see. You were an extremely reluctant role model, but you understood that you were one, whether you wanted to be or not. Once I went to see your one-woman show. My brother and I hung around afterward in case you came out to do autographs or something. We waited a while then finally asked one of the theater workers. “No she doesn’t come out. We just saw her for setup and the show. She’s a really private person,” the worker said. I remember not really being disappointed, but instead being rather happy for you. Good choice, I thought. You’ve appeared, acknowledged all things people know about you, telling stories about your famous playboyish father, your Hollywood musical icon (and drag queen muse—God bless her for it) mother, your marriage to Paul Simon, and you even donned a “cinnamon bun” wig to acknowledge your iconic role as Princess Leia.
You joked about being a Pez dispenser, about George Lucas (now Disney) owning your likeness “So every time I look in the mirror I have to pay him.” You knew that your notoriety was what would draw people, from curious to obsessed. You saw that people needed you to be Princess Leia for them. You gave us that. You understood that the public needed you to appear at ComicCon. You understood that countless teenage boys (and older) fantasized about you. Why do we ask this of you? Why aren’t you allowed to just be a “normal” person? You could never be that, not with your family, not with Star Wars. So you accepted your fame and you used it to talk about these things that people face. You are Hollywood, which equals American, royalty. You are our people’s Princess.
You, too, survived injustices and poor choices, pitfalls of fame and bipolarism. But you never gave up, and you never gave in. Thank you.
I’ve written elsewhere about how you became my role model, about how when I was growing up and was told to “act more like a lady,” and when I saw Princess Leia I thought, if that’s a lady, well, maybe I can do that. And how later when I learned more about you, Carrie Fisher, I looked up to you even more than the character you played. What I admired was this self-acknowledgement, this intelligent and sacrificial choice to embrace your role as a public figure.
The truth is, Princess Leia is so much of you. She shares your tenacity, your idealism, your compassion, your understanding of darkness and your battle to never succumb to it. No one could have made that character but you, acknowledged British accent in the first film included. She needed your strength. She is a symbol of human strength, class, good fighting evil, and hope. You gave her those qualities. George Lucas and Disney should still be paying you for it.
Thank you for fighting a good fight. Thank you for being who we needed you to be for us. Thank you for using pain to open up your world, not close it. Thank you for being our princess.

What I hope for you, and for you family, is peace. No more struggles. No more pain. No more needing to overcome. Death is loss and death is evil. But in it I hope you were granted some kind of release, and I hope your loved ones are comforted even though there is nothing to replace their loss.
I hope fans leave them alone. We have lost, too, but we will grieve selfishly. We loved you even though we knew your celebrity, not you personally. You gave us yourself and, like all celebrities, you will give us yourself in death. We will grieve though we didn’t know you because you meant something to us. But I hope all of us public mourners remember that what we are grieving is just that—what you meant to us, not who you were.
I hope that in death you are freed from who you need to be for others and that you are allowed to just be, just you and whatever comes next. I’m a Christian, so I have my thoughts on what does come next for all of us after death, most of which are beside the point here. I think you will meet something Eternal and account for your life. That is between you and the Eternal. But I believe you understand sacrificial love and I pray you do have peace and rest.
The most fitting goodbye I can give you is in your own words. Near the end of your book The Best Awful the character based on you, Suzanne, acknowledges her complicated relationship with Leland, the father of her child. The scene ends in a quiet way that understands and acknowledges everything between them. Your keen observance, your insightful thinking, and your way with words are all summed up.
“And smiling, she lifted her ubiquitous glass of Diet Coke to Leland and nodded. And sipping her drink, she bowed and walked off the stage.”
God bess you, Carrie Fisher, and grant you peace.














“Box Office Prophets.” Basically, the article examines the rise in popularity of films made by and marketed to Evangelical Christians. Honeycutt mentions the commercial viability of films after The Omega Code made a surprising box office splash. Films like Courageous and Fireproof and Kevin Sorbo’s staunch defense of God’s Not Dead. Honeycutt also mentions the importance of pastoral promotion for these movies, the idea that the Christian community was looking for safe material for families to watch (giving birth to David A. R. White’s Pure Flix, a Netflix for Christians), and the easy label that anything with “prayer” in the title (like Maggie Kiley’s 2015 indie pic Dial A Prayer) gets as “Christian.”
Christ? If so, we need more meat and less conversion message. Christianity is a deep tradition with countless. Count.Less. real life stories that are incredibly powerful. Case in point: the well made film The Hiding Place. Or, if you are instead trying to appeal to a broad demography, can you please stop painting a narrow view of our religion?
Force Awakens was not to watch the original trilogy, but listen to you reading the audiobook version of your autobiography Wishful Drinking. To be candid, it’s been a hell of a week. Mostly personal stuff I won’t bore you with, like my fiancée getting bad health news, my surrogate adopted daughter having a terrible Christmas (again), and my workplace laying more people off after we all made concessions so they wouldn’t. There was also the showdown in my house that left cats we are watching fighting and ruining presents by peeing under the tree. That was fun. Or, well, you get the idea. I actually said to someone this week, “Well, at least bombs aren’t falling out of the sky.” It was that week.
about her. And I’m assuming they will develop your character over the next films, especially with her son and semi?* daughter. But when I think about fighting the Dark Side. I think about fear and hate and anger and depression, and how you, Carrie Fisher, have fought them. As I listen to your book, I feel empowered. We are only as sick as our secrets. It’s a powerful thing you do, telling your story. Your full acceptance of who you are and your own humanity, that’s what makes you a role model. It’s how your celebrity becomes a gift. You use humor and your own experience to help other people find some perspective. Life has beaten you up. But you’re turning the bad stuff in your past into fuel for a better future.
looked beautiful on screen (side note, your gown in the final scene, how long will it take people to figure out that you are, well, not tall? The neckline was lovely but… That aside, I loved Leia’s new hair). But, well, I don’t know how much say you have. Should I forward this to J.J. Abram’s office? Maybe in a spinoff? I mean, you’re a writer. You have a gift with words. You were married to Paul Simon for heaven’s sake. You’ve doctored how many Hollywood scripts? Can they give you a pass on the next one? I just think, here’s this gifted writer, and she understands celebrity and how persona is a part of the characters you play. For better or worse, Leia is a part of you and you are her. She does not exist without you. Not really. So couldn’t they just give you some more free reign? Leia has had some really awful stuff happen. So have you. I think you, Carrie Fisher, have some important perspective on light and dark, and I think Leia should share that.


















Why This Christian Film Prof Loves RuPaul’s Drag Race
Listen. It’s time to talk about this. It’s going to take some space, though. So buckle up, this is a lengthy post.
Perceived problems with a Christian prof watching Drag Race
Also:
According to Christian content watchdog Common Sense Media, “The show supports the gay, lesbian, bisexual, and transgendered community, while simultaneously sending the message that drag queens must be overly sexualized in order to succeed. It also promotes self-acceptance.” [italics added]
Perceived reasons for a Christian prof to watch Drag Race:
At the very least, understanding a social group that has been at odds with many facets of the Christian community is an important way to reach out.
I work in the theater community. I work with people from the LGBTQ community on a regular basis. The LGBTQ community is my family and my friends. It is my community. I am also a Christian. The Christian community is my community. That has not always been easy. But being in theater has provided opportunities, whenever possible, shine a light about redemptive love to everyone I encounter.
As an advocate for the LGBTQ community and a Christian—things that are not necessarily at odds —I am glad there is a mainstream show where members of this community can be open, honest, and caring about their struggles, successes, and selves.
There are many people who identify as Christian and LGBTQ or an advocate. More and more people are writing on this topic. In fact, several of the queens on Drag Race including Ginger Minj, Latrice Royale, Alyssa Edwards have hinted or explicitly talked about their Christian culture and beliefs.
True in many ways, like a great deal of television, but “appropriate content” is an idea worth revisiting on several levels.
Certainly some content is not appropriate based on age and maturity (oh that we could measure maturity like we measure age…), but that’s true of many kinds of content. Consider violence. Or, as Common Sense Media’s description notes, consumerism. Now consider many films deemed appropriate by Christian media advocates, like Enchanted, which rated a 4 for positive role models, a 3 for violence, and only a 3 on the consumerism scale for Common Sense Media. Since the main character “wins her love” by borrowing his credit card to go shopping for more socially appropriate clothes….I would argue a full five. I guess content is pretty subjective.
Explicit content can serve a purpose.
There are pitfalls of explicit content all over the media landscape. Theater as a social tool has often pushed boundaries with the intention of challenging audiences to rethink norms. This has been take too far on many occasions, and is often gratuitous. But has also done much good in representing people whose stories could previously not be told, and serving as a prophetic voice. As author Flannery O’Connor has put it, “To the hard of hearing you shout, and for the blind you draw large, startling figures.” As many have pointed out, the Bible itself is full of explicit content.
Explicit content is important to monitor. So is implicit.
I feel so strongly about understanding the importance of implicit ideologies, the “hidden messages” of media, that I wrote a book intended to help viewers figure it out.
This includes drinking, drugs, and sexualization.
RuPaul’s Drag Race certainly has some explicit messages I personally don’t align with (the sexualization is a whole other post; people on display is always a complicated topic). Frankly, The Bachelor has many more.
The same could be said for implicit messages. However, despite both explicit and implicit messages I don’t agree with, there are several implicit messages I feel very strongly about because I agree with them so deeply:
If you can’t love yourself….you’re not alone. We all need some grace. While I don’t hold the same theology as RuPaul, my theology compliments it in many ways. We have to know our own worth. Our worth is not based on external factors (or even the good things we’ve done if you follow St. Paul’s admonition to balance faith and works).
And it is true, in order to fully accept others we must realize both our own faults and our own worth. Level the playing field. We all want to be loved. We all need forgiveness.
Fan art by Travis Falligant
The last defining factor is always the state of the viewer’s own heart. Should I watch RuPaul’s Drag Race? Let’s put it in the same category as food. Is this food offered to idols? Is it food that Gentiles eat? I have no desire to make a sister stumble. It’s a major part of why I teach and write, so I can extend that conversation. But does watching RuPaul bring me closer to the Divine? (…For those of you picking up on my play on words, condragulations.)
Flannery O’Connor also once said, “I once received a letter from an old lady in California who informed me that when the tired reader comes home at night, he wishes to read something that will lift up his heart.” She responded to the thought with, “I think that if her heart had been in the right place, it would have been lifted up.”
Where we are, the state of our heart, impacts how we take in the culture around us:
In that regard, Drag Race is more honest than most television shows. It knows it’s a sham, just as the performers do. No show on television more openly understands its place as entertainment. This is all performance. It’s all just drag. What is real, anyway? Identity is a hoax. If men can compete to look that amazing dressed as women, what else has the capacity to fool us? All entertainment, at some level, is a deception we willingly enter in to. That fuzzy line between life and performance is explored on Drag Race in a way it can’t be anywhere else. The show doesn’t pretend to be anything other than what it is, and it does so by showing all the ways performers pretend. It’s open to debate. It embraces discussion from different points of view. Drag Race has become the phenomenon it is not only because it is entertaining, but also because it is so compellingly about honesty.
So, in response, I have to be honest. Much as I find fault with most reality television shows, and much as I do have some reservations (frankly, I do about everything on television), they are outweighed by the factors I mention. I have been a tried and true fan of Drag Race for years. I’ve been watching it for a long, long time. But I have refrained from talking about it openly. I have, well, kelp my love for RuPaul in the closet.
In this small way I understand a taste of what it means to fear being accepted. To fear not only rejection but retaliation. I’m writing this post because fear is no way to live. In fact, I believe perfect love will cast it out.
If the day comes that tuning in to Drag Race makes me stop growing in the Fruits of the Spirit, it will be time to stop watching. And I hope someone I know and trust lovingly tells me so. Honesty is beautiful. No tea, no shade.
Until that day, I’m #TeamValentina #TeamShea #TeamSasha forever #TeamLatrice .